It bothers me so much
that you walk around becoming friends with everyone carelessly. That i’m left to sit in the pity that you have done to me. Would people still be friends with you if they knew what kind of monster you are? Would one of my closer friend, whom I don’t speak to, see you in a different light? So many times I’ve been tempted to share my story. Ruin your reputation to every single person. But I can’t bring myself to.
HAHAHHAHAA people. 10.19.12
I lolololol at the nerve of people. I personally don’t think I even hashtag that much (maybe I do, idk) but, to the main point, for someone to tell you to go die because of simply hashtagging too much is ridiculous. Also to make it clear he wasn’t joking since he also said no fucks were given after I told him ok I would (that was actually a joke). For all you still going ahhh it was a joke take it lightly, hear me out. I don’t know him that well and he doesn’t know me that well; what if I was mentally/emotionally unstable and thinking everyone hates me. What if that one comment telling me to go die was all I needed to finally commit suicide? Although these are all what ifs, think about it. This shit actually happens. Your silly cyber bullying can actually make a difference in someone’s life and all those that it may affect. Why do you even bother? It just bugs me so much that a boy can come to the nerve to just go around telling people to go die for something as silly as hashtagging. Maybe I’m taking this too serious. Maybe I need to lighten up. Just maybe. But then again, maybe those two words were the two words, if said to someone else, would be all it takes to end another life out of stupidity and bullying.
I can’t log into my flickr account because I deactivated fb and everything is all fucked up now in both places.
AMAZING RACE: OCT 1st, 2012
OMAHGGAHHHH. ERMGAHHH. I love this show. I’m so bummed I have to wait till I’m 21 to be on it. I’m also kind of bummed that it’s in shanghai. I kind of miss that city. WAHHHHHHHHH. WHY AINT I OLD ENOUGH. I’m so pumped that the new season started though.
12:41 am Sept 30th, 2012
LOL well since I deactivated Facebook, I have more time to tumblr! I also haven’t written in awhile so here it issssssssss
I guess I’ll update whoever actually reads these in what has been going on lately. Just a lot of school. College is hard. For the high school kids, learn your shit because they expect you to know it well in college. Don’t be like me and not take Calculus because you don’t like math. Take it and suffer so you will suffer less when you take it at college.
I just came back to the gym, third time this week! But I gotta keep this up because I think I’m starting to get a tummy. :(. I’ve also recently started listening to Drake a lot again. <3 I’m still dying to see him live.
Ok now I need a shower so I’m not finishing this LOL
LLOL 6:16 AM
HELL YEAH. Finish my research case study shit for bio the morning of…bad high school habits in college WEEEEEEEEEEEE! I also drank a monster which is bad since I’m not suppose to have caffeine. hehehhee. But Yeah…l’m kind of loopey and I don’t know if I should sleep now or not because I’ll have to be up in 4 hours and Idk If I can wake up in 4 hours…. AHHHHHHH!
College? 3:03 AM, August 27, 2012
So a whole week of legit school has past and I’ve been living on campus for two weeks already. So since I can’t sleep right now, I’ll share a bit about how it’s been so far.
Everyone always asks me how college is, but there is just so much going on and so much not going on at the same time that it’s hard to answer it in a short response. I mean, classes are classes. I’ve been taking community college classes and I had that one class at UPENN over the summer before now so it doesn’t feel all that new to me. Living away from my parents isn’t that hard since I’ve been doing it for the past two summers already and I’m a pretty independent person….sometimes. The weather here kind of sucks though. It’lll be hot for one second, cold in another, raining in another, and then be hot all in the same day! Freaking Indiana. People wise, I’ve met a fair share of decent people, chill people, crazy ass mofo people, beezys, and nut jobs. Having Max as a friend is definitely awesome since he has introduced me to a number of really awesome people. The food at the dinning courts aren’t bad, in fact it actually can get really damn good dishes at times. The parties and kickbacks are pretty chillin. College is definitely so much better then high school, but idk everything is just kind of aight to me. I feel kind of numb and emotionless about it all, which I find strange.
Oh well, BOILER UP EFFFFFVVVVAAAAARRRRRRBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHDDYYYY!!
August 3rd, 2012: 1:30 AM
So uh… I just watched the new jb music video. Thoughts? BIG SEAN! Also possible melancholy thoughts but its ok.
Aha I think I started one of those things where I was so suppose to post something everyday but seeing that i’m just remembering it…I obviously FAILED.
Today is going to be my last day of working at the doctor’s office. I’m excited because I’m going to finally get a week of summer while here but also sad because I actually really like going. The office ladies made my time there so much fun and I’m pretty sure I’ve picked up a few of their habits too. The summer is coming to an end so quickly… But I’m pretty excited to be heading off to Purdue soon :D Guess there’s a few things still bugging me but I’m just gonna suck it up.
I ACCIDENTALLY GOT TIMELINED!
9 Things About Myself
1. I still sleep with a blankey, yes I’m a little kid ^^
2. I follow the Christina diet, which is eat everything.
3. I watch way too many tv shows, I fear how this will affect school.
4. I love movies, especially scary ones >:)
5. I hate one word messages, I won’t message you back ever again.
6. I’m really insecure but yet really strong at the same time.
7. I’m forgetting those who have forgotten me, fuck you niggas.
8. I’m a bit technologically challenged, doors are grouped in that category.
9. I’m weird, and I like it like that….because I’m weird… HAHHA
10 Things I Want to say to 10 Different People
1. You can’t go through with it. Haven’t you seen what has been right in front of you the whole time.
2. Don’t ever run into me or I’ll beat the shit out of your immature bitch ass self. Can’t believe you said as you grew older implying that you’re so old and wise now HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHHAHHA you’re a joke.
3. ANSWER MY TEXT BITCH. Also I smell something fishy between you and A. :O
4. WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN NEXT YEAR WOOOOOP BOILERMAKERS!
5. You give really good advice and I like talking to you, but you do seem a bit sketch…just a bit.
6. CAN’T WAIT TILL FRIDAY. It will be legen-wait for it- DARY.
7. You’re really fucking creepy the more I think of it….
8. I can’t wait till next year when you realize all you have lost.
9. I CAN”T BELIEVE THE THINGS YOU HAVE BEEN UP TO. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY BABY.
10. Suck it up. Grow some balls. Let loose. Have fun.
So the end begins today.
It’s kind of funny. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because he said he was grown up when he really is a little boy. Through text….really? Ass move. The first time I cried my eyes out for the two hours we were broken up. Today I cried for two minutes, went to work and forgot it happened. Repressed…yes… but then again reassurance. Breaking my own rules is never a good idea…. ever. So much regret. So much time wasted. So much tears wasted. So much shit. I know you “shouldnt be saaad that its over and happy that it happened” but honestly…. I’m not too happy that its happen and nor am I that sad that its over. Sure I’m still sad. But I mean…. after everything. But he is right. There are better guys. There are hotter and sweeter and older guys. I will have fun in college. Fuck you and your childish insecurities. Fuck you for screwing me over. Fuck you for making me realize what a poser you are. Yes I did realize it at one point but I was too blinded. FUCK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. As you can see through this post I have gone through several stages. First hysteria, regret, self reassurance, and then anger. HAHAHHAA we didn’t even make it through the summer how sad. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH back to histeria AHHAHAHHAHAHAH FUCK YOU NIGGA. HAHAHHAHAA. YOU’RE A POSER ASS BITCH WHO WANTS TO BE “cool”. BUT YET YOU WEAR SO MUCH HOLLISTER BECAUSE YOU WANT TO BE PREEPPY. Wait it all makes sense now. YOU ARE THE PREPPY JOCK DICK THAT ARE ALWAYS IN THE MOVIES. Like i said you looked like in that picture of you showing off your tits like a DOUCHE. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA SO ANGRY SO HISTERICAL SO CRAY CRAY WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. If you’re still following me after this I congratulate you on tolerating my insanity. I was singing really loudly in my car on the way to the movies and I just broke down HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA. But NOW IM BETTER I THINK. IM REALY TIRED SO I’M GOING TO BED WEEEEEEEEEEE